Usually if I have trouble sleeping, I just go eat something and that would make me sleep easier. This might explain my mid section too. But not this time, i am running out of food. Need to go do groceries, which fucking sucks because I dont own a car. Damn, nearly 4 years without a car, somewhat unbelievable.
Before graduation, people kept on telling me, "..you must be happy now that you are graduating". My answer to that, but I did not say it loud, was " how can I be happy if I am graduating with a not so good CGPA". I felt that I screwed up too much, didnt study hard enough, and things of that nature.
But on the day itself, as soon as I secured a seat in the packed Crisler Arena, it started to happen. I do not know about other people, but I was really happy, like I was on drugs or something. I guess I realized I did work hard, at times, but just was not good enough. Maybe the best feeling is to know that you have nothing due the next day.
But now, I am hoping for the best and preparing for the worst. I know that it is not going to be easy with this kind of GPA. I have never been in this kind of situation before. I think I can only tolerate 6 months of job searching, that is my worst case scenario. And after that, I might want to think of something else like graduate studies maybe.
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